Monday, September 17, 2012

the people.

People come and go, but true friends will stay. Sadly for me, the few closest friends are gone. :( what sucks is that they all left in two weeks (I hope I did my math right). Ashley left on 31st of august, my brother on the 7th of september and Chia Li on the 8th of september.

T_T

to Ashley,

I don't know where to start. You've been my best friend since we were 8. Or 7, I can't remember. My memory is failing me hahaha. But yeah, ahem. Basically all my life you lived a stone's throw away. I could just ask you to go to the karaoke, or go out and watch movies at Jusco, or go out for supper and have maggi mee goreng. But now that you're in sg, I'll just have to wait till you come back for these things to happen again :( Sad. Mel is sad. :( :( :(

I hope you're doing well there. If Rene and gang weren't there, I'd be worried about you. But since she lives right next door, and she's like a big sister figure, I'm sure you will be fine. Just don't cry missing me too much ok! :x

I'm glad I met you in sri garden 13 years ago. Yes I'm damn sure we were in the same std 1 class. 1 Dahlia right? If we haven't met, our moms wouldn't have had us carpooled. We wouldn't have been the best of friends. We wouldn't have shared so many experiences together. The failures, the successes, the heartbreaks, the drama. I'm grateful I met you. Thanks for being the sister I never could've asked for.



Oh god look at us. LOL. This was when we were in year 8 I think? I still remember you switched from 8 Terra to 8 Aqua for me <3 SO TOUCHED :')


My infamous lightbulb hair.

  

Our last few photobooth shots in cempaka :(

 

And then we started to experiment with make up..

 

Until we look so FABULOUS today! :x I miss my long hair :(

Yeah the first two pictures are small. Unglam pics must be small.

I know as asians we hardly express our love to friends and family, but I guess I should start. I love you, sis! 



to Chia Li,

Since 2 and a half years ago, you have been my shopping kaki, camho kaki, chick flick movie kaki, experiment new restaurants kaki, kpop spazzing kaki, study kaki, travel kaki, etc kaki.

Now you're all the way in China.

Boo :(

It's really a sad thought, you know. To have no one to do things with. All of you being away from me, I feel so sad laaaa T_T

But okay back to the topic. Thank you for always being there for me, for always looking out for me. I'm sorry if I, as a friend, failed to express my gratitude while you were still here in Msia. but I'm doing it now, and I hope it's better late than never. 

I know China is a whole new environment. For one, it's going to be damn freaking cold in winter hahah. Plus china food is damn oily and they will never be as awesome as the ones we have here! I know it's hard to be away from home. Heck I was away from home for 10 days and I broke down. Mind you, my parents were still with me LOL. Pathetic. Okay anyways. I'm sure you'll be fine. I know you're stronger than I am lol. Make sure you make good friends. There will be people who will use you for the benefits and just heck care you when they've accomplished whatever it is they wanted done. Just be aware of them and not let them take advantage of you. :) And then there are the genuine ones. Like me. HAHAH self praise much. So yeah, all the best to you and I hope you make good friends! Sorry to say you'll never make awesome ones because one of them is in UK and 3 of them are still in Msia. :P


One of our MANY camho pics lol. Yes it's a KitKat, stop staring.


The most awesome people you'll ever meet. :P We love you!



to my LITTLE brother,

In my 20 years of life, I've never felt so empty at home. when I walk past your room and see how empty it is, I feel empty too. Back then I could just bust into your room and ask if you have new movies. Or go in and sit, just to be nosy lol. Or I'd buy you food from outside and make you fat. And when I'm overseas, I'd buy you stuff (using the allowance mom gave me). Yes I know it's not my OWN money but I could've spent that amount on myself instead of you. So it's the thought that counts :P

I remember for a period of time in my life, I shut everyone in my family out, including you. I'm sorry if I haven't been a good example back then. Up to this very day I still regret the things I did and didn't do. I hope it's still not too late for me to start being a good sister now. 

They say you won't cherish until you lose. It's true. Only when the reality that you're leaving hit me, that I started to cherish your presence. Often times we may just lock ourselves in our own rooms, but the fact that I KNOW you're just right next door is different from now. Right now, across my room is an empty one. Omg why am I getting so emo.

Take care of yourself in UK, okay? Do well in your studies, but most importantly do well in life. Make tons of friends. The good ones. Join whatever clubs and societies. Do sports. Eat healthy. Sleep well. Bla bla bla lol.

I know I have never really been there for you. But i am now. If you ever miss home, if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm just a skype call away. Or even a whatsapp message away. :) I'm not mom and dad, I won't nag at you. So don't worry :D 

Mom and dad said we should cherish each other because you're my only real brother and I'm your only real sister. Okay. so I cherish you okay? So you cherish me toooooo

Just take care of yourself and don't do drugs!


I miss my long hair! :(


The family that loves you :)

to all three of you,

I miss you and I love you all. :')

Okay bye -end of cheesy post-

the past.

i don't know why these few days i've been reminiscing. i kept thinking about the past, both good and bad. maybe it's because my life currently is so damn boring that i have to spice it up a little by thinking about the drama and whatnot that has happened to me... gosh i'm so pathetic. :(

few things i realised:

1. you can never really count on someone to treat you the way they do for the rest of your lives.
2. people change. circumstances change. feelings, too.
3. what may seem bad before is really actually a blessing in disguise.
4. what's meant to be will be.
5. you can't force others to like you, neither can you force yourself to like others.
6. when guys get too clingy, that's when girls save their own asses and back out.
7. guys, please don't be too clingy. it freaks the hell out of us.
8. i don't know where this list is going..
9. i think i have lost the spice in my online/texting format. i sound so damn boring without the smileys and emoticons now..  .___.
10. i think i was a damn good blogger. i'm referring to my old blog. butteredbun.blogspot.com if you're interested :D
11. oh i realised i was a socially awkward penguin all my life.
12. i wanna be the cool kid :(
13. nah just kidding. i am cool.
14. as you can see, i went back to type informally again (without capitalization and stuff). don't judge me! So I painstakingly edited my recent post with this kind of typing again. I'm so fickle minded LOL.

Edit:
to add to the list,
15. i think i was hideous. and i think i look better with the help of make up now. :) thanks to xiaxue! she inspired me to use false eyelashes lol. okay bye.